Erin: Co-Creating Our Reality

Day 92

2007-08-22T13:09:00.000-07:00

Well, a week from 100 days. It seems like such a long time has passed, but it's only 100 days.

So, a recap for myself to see what's left to accomplish in this last week. My original goals:

1. Obtain enjoyable work that pays in excess of $3000/month

I have found enjoyable work that pays approximately $2700 before deductions. I am actively seeking other work (I asked to be hired for a job that I have an interview at tomorrow that pays $1500 or so a month) I am also mystery shopping and doing survey and affiliate marketing which brings in maybe $100 or so a month.

2. Lose 25 pounds and become physically fit

I decided to pass this one up shortly after writing it. The more I tried to lose, the more I gained, and with other things on my plate, decided to forgo this until other things were more settled so I can properly put my efforts into it. I have however inquired about the gym pass for UVIC employees, inquired about horse back riding and belly dance classes, and have been working out when I can fit these things into my work schedule once it starts with permanent shifts in October.

3. Read 6 books on success/wealth/attraction

I may be able to still do this! I have read 2, so 4 left to go, which I already have here at home.

4. Nail down the ability to trust the universe

This becomes clearer and easier with every passing day. I noticed a very clear connection between my intentions and the outcome within the last few weeks. I do still worry and this is something I am moving away from more each day. I am happy with the progress I've made and know this will really break out in the near future.

5. Find and start a way of earning at-home income

I did this quite quickly after writing. I do online surveys, click-throughs, affiliate marketing, and mystery shopping.

6. Fully heal my amputated fingertip (above-mentioned work injury)

Ta-da! All done!

7. Obtain passports for my son and I

They're sitting right next to me. :)

A few weeks ago child support was missing for a second month, so I decided that I was going to get it. Right then. I decided to constantly say to myself 'Today I am receiving child support in full.' It was always at the forefront of my mind, over and over and over. The morning after saying this, I checked my account, no funds. But within a couple of hours, my landlord came down and excitedly handed me a letter from my ex. (she knew I was waiting on it!) I knew money wasn't in there, as it's all done through a seperate agency, but I did get a lengthy letter describing their finances, and when the monies would be paid. Now, I did not receive monies, but for me, this was just as good and I was totally awe-struck that overnight this had manifested.

Around the same time I came across another UVIC posting that miraculously was for the hours that I had available after working my original UVIC job. Although I didn't have the highest aptitude in the areas they needed, I decided this was my job and declared it as mine. Yesterday I got called for an interview, which is tomorrow. I will be tested so need to pull everything from the universe to get through it and be delivered this job as asked.

Thinking of these so obvious manifestations, I decided yesterday, being a little cash-short, to declare that today I am receiving $1000 in unexpected income. I will let you know how this goes. I've been repeating it as often as possible and when I can attaching a glowing loving happy feeling to the words.

I have through recently that I ought to do the same with my body. I think resisting declaring a beuatiful body as mine for these last weeks really shows how entrenched my attachment to this body is. Ouch. Solar plexus alert there. I can do it. We'll have a look at this after my next 100 days and see how things have gone.

I found this bit of a story at thesecret.tv :
'As a final note - I advise you to love the rain. A few days before this all happened I began a mantra of enthusiasm that "money flows to me like water". Later that day and for the next few days, we got rain after a dry spell (my husband is self-employed and we need the rain). I was driving when it started and just laughed because "money flows to me like water" and the more excited I got the harder it rained. Every raindrop is a dollar and they were all coming to me faster than I could count. It was the most fun I've ever had driving in a torrential rain pour, and the best part is I believe it and you should too. There really is enough for all of us to live in abundance and I hope you are blessed and inspired to claim all you could hope for and more from our friendly and generous universe.'

We get rain 11 months of the year here. I thought this was a beautiful and very easy thing for me to do, so this is what I will say from now on, and be thankful and exceited whenever the rain comes.

Day 70

2007-07-31T18:32:00.001-07:00

I WON!!! I won a Mind Movie Kit!!! I'm so excited!

With it I made my Mind Movie: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1TglkNwibwg

As I watched it the first few times I had to cry out of hapiness. And if I listen close enough to the words ofthe song I chose I cry too. Also out of happinness. She says it perfectly. She gives you the answer, the key to it all. If only people would believe it, the world would be transformed.

Please click on the black mind movie banner on this page and get yourself a Mind Movie. You won't regret it.

Later...
I changed the movie a bit. Here's the other: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6rbDxqqA7c

Day 56

2007-07-17T16:19:00.000-07:00

Wow, I'm only a little over half way through my 100 days. It really feels longer. I feel more confident that I will compelte all I've set out to do knowing I have more time.

Fantastic super cosmic blessings have been coming my way recently. The power of attraction has shown up so willingly and so obviously so often the last week or two that I can hardly believe it.

When I last wrote, I was in a tough place and I knew that life couldn't get any better until I got back on track. So I have been working very hard the last 2 weeks to really bring things back up to par. I'll be honest and say that I have not been as vigilant with affirmations, meditation, and other 'things' to do, instead it's really been a feeling, and a faith that I've held.

2 weeks ago I received my first unexpected deposit into my bank account (one of my daily affirmations). I was not expecting this payment for another 3 months. And today I woke up to another deposit from EI! I haven't been on EI in ages. It was only for $29, but it came just when I needed it.

I had a payment that was coming due last weekend, and needed the funds to pay for it, so I decided to have a garage sale. I made about $5-10, most of that was after hours of waiting for people. I decided to cheerfully give thanks for all the fantastic things in my life. As soon as I did, someone showed up. So I tried it again, and again, and every time people showed up! As I made next to nothing, I decided to have another sale the next day. From the start to finish over and over people came and I made $62.50 that day, significantly more than the day before. I played a little that day with gratitude, and shockingly the number of paying customers always was in direct harmony with my gratefulness. I could no longer take it as coincidence.

More great things came on Saturday when I did my first 2 mystery shopping jobs. I'm paid $8 US for each shop, plus I am reimbursed for purchasing an item up to $5! Since then I've been hired for I think 3 more with more on the way. I also just completed my first survey to pay $5 cash. That's the most cold hard cash I've been paid for a survey thus far.

I also had a great convo with my landlady about rent and work, and she has given me flexibility in the payment of rent and offered help in looking for work. She also gave me a great lead for daycare.

I have 3 or 4 interviews set up for this Thursday, the most exciting of which is in Food Services at UVIC!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A couple of weeks ago while applying I said that I wanted the job at UVIC, and of all the years I've been applying this was the first time I've been called.

If I get that job at UVIC I won't move back home to the mainland. It's too good an offer to pass up. But I am still seriously considering moving and making small preparations for it.

All in all, I've found over the last 2 weeks the single most powerful of anything I've done is being grateful. Truly grateful, feeling it and being truly happy for what I am thanking for.

:D

Day 44

2007-07-05T21:42:00.000-07:00

2 weeks since my last post. It's been a rough couple of weeks, which is why I haven't written. I never like to write when there's upset.

I made a bad judgement call in allowing that letter I wrote during my dark time last year to be published a month ago. I remember thinking as he was asking my permission, "this is a negative part of your past, don't bring it into your present." But I did. And having read The Science of Getting Rich , Wallace states over and over never to speak of hardship or charity, or of negative situations from your past as it will stray you from your path. I beleive it has successfully done that.

I have to break this cycle.

I think I will overnight, as I have an interview in the morning that I really want to be successful at.

I am now the perfect age. 30. I had a wonderful break at my parent's and they had me a little party with family. It was lovely. I'm blessed to have them.

I'd like to dig into a box of Tim Horton's Donuts right now. Or suck back a few beer. :) Thank goodness I don't actually have either.

Day 30

2007-06-21T16:54:00.000-07:00

One month in!

I received our passports yesterday! YES!

Everyday my online endeavours get bigger and better. I get more and more surveys every week. This week I've seen the real reason for doing it start to come in...cold hard cash. Most sites offer entries, samples, etc. but I've actually got money coming in, and a gift card to Amazon.com!

I've been great the last 2 days at keeping my goals at the forefront of my mind most of the day. I've been working hard at it.

Today I meditated to Holosync for the first time in a week or two. It was the deepest yet. I'm eager to get the full version.

Day 27

2007-06-18T12:09:00.003-07:00

Some interesting news. Remember that site that was supposed to direct traffic to my websites that changed my hits on mind movies from 1 or 2 a day to 300? I found out today that it hadn't ever been put in place. Those hits were from other sources. !!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

It however will be put into effect this afternoon. I am very interested in how things go down.

Also, I was very excited to see the other 2 stories I sent to thesecret.tv published! http://thesecret.tv/secret-treasures-stories-read.html?id=1496 and http://thesecret.tv/secret-treasures-stories-read.html?id=1495

I read some really inspiring stories there.

I spent alot of time this morning repeating my goals, and visualizing what I could. I've been walking home after dropping my son off at school the last several days. It's only 20 minutes or so and I find this to be a good time for all the repetition. My inner dialogue usually goes something like this:

I am a Money Magnet. Every molecule of my being has a positive attractive force that brings me a constant, abundant stream of income from unlimited sources.
I am a multi-millionaire. I am a lotto 6/49 jackpot winner in the amount of 18 million dollars.
Money is my friend and comes to me easily. I love money. Money loves me.
Money falls over me like an avalanche.
There is more money being printed for me right now.
I receive new money making ideas and opportunities everyday.
I receive unexpected cheques in the mail. I receive unexpected deposits into my PayPal account. I receive unexpected deposits into my bank account.
I know that I can buy whatever I want, whenever I want, becasue I know I always have more than enough money for it.
I receive child support in full and on time every month.
My online endeavours will earn me $100,000 within this calendar year.
Everything I invest in brings me great wealth.
What I advertise, people want to buy.
Every molecule of my body, mind and soul are in perfect harmony with the universe.

And then I thank for receiving each of these things now.

While in the shower I say these things, but I also add that affirmation from the book the Secret:

I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.

I was doing the weight loss stuff that the secret mentioned, but I very rapidly (we're talking 7-10 days) gained 10 pounds, so I knew I mustn't be quite on par with that. So decided to instead concentrate on my income, work, and all other financial aspects. I do, however still say to myself "That's my body" when I see one that I'd like to have and am thinking of putting a cover over the scale that will always show me as 135 lbs.

I've really been wondering lately how I can make room in my life for my new money. Like the man who wanted a 50" TV so he cleared a space in the living room for it, and then got it. Or the woman who wanted to find a husaband so cleared a spot in the garage for his car, and a space in the closet for his clothes, etc.

I think a good start would be to set up a home office. I've been feeling I need something more organized and specific for the new online endeavours anyway. So that could be one bit. I know I need to get back onto shopping high end. I used to inquire about everything needed to build my dream home.

Maybe I ought to start shopping for a mortgage, open a savings account, or some other financial lookings-into that people with great wealth would be taking advantage of.

If anyone has any ideas as to how I can make room for the new money, please let me know! Add a comment here or email me.

Day 27

2007-06-18T12:09:00.001-07:00

Day 26

2007-06-17T12:48:00.000-07:00

I should be getting our passports next week. So there's one thing I can officially strike off my 100 day goals. I have found a way to make money online, and am doing it. So that one can be struck off. 25lb weight loss. Not yet. Read 6 books - well The Science of Getting Rich said not to read any other ways to use the law of attraction, to concentrate on his ways only for the next 1-2 months. I may or may not. Obtain work that pays well - I'm always working on that. Nail down the ability to trust the universe - It gets better everyday. We'll see how good that goes at the end of the month (rent time). And the last fully heal my amputated fingertip. I haven't had it covered in a very long time. I have no doubt this will happen in the time alotted.

Thinking about Wallace Wattle's ways, I have been lacking the last couple of days. I'm noticing a pattern. Friday Saturday and Sunday I don't seem to do alot. But the rest of the week I am on top of it all.

Day 23

2007-06-14T16:26:00.000-07:00

So my most recent deliberate manifestation was yesterday. The day before my dad had called to say he was picking us up for dinner the following night about 5pm. After the call I wondered if he meant with the family or not, and where. Having some issues still with absent relatives, I was upset all night. Torn between making my dad happy and me happy. Then I realized I don't have to do this. I can have what I want. So I asked that he pick us up on time and take Jacob and I to a restaurant of our choosing, just the three of us. And that our visit would be pleasant and full of interesting conversation. Well, I got it exactly. You can only understand how miraculaous that is if you're me.

Amazing developments in the online money making world. Paypal came through and the money I transfered arrived in my paypal account yesterday. So I got right on top of it and signed up for mystery shopping leads, search engine advertising, and this project payday which is a phenomenal thing! I've only been able to track hits on mind movies, but I went from 1 or 2 a day to about 300 in less than 24 hours.

I had a little moment yesterday when I was overcome with a very assured feeling that I was in it. This was what would explode into the financial means I've been expecting. It was lovely.

It gets bigger and closer everyday!

Day 21

2007-06-12T11:22:00.000-07:00

I haven't written becasue I had been rather lazy for a few days. Today I am energized , though! I am ecstatic about this amazing affiliate marketing breakthrough I made last night. I've found the pot of gold! I just can't wait for it to snowball.

And I visited thesecret.tv today to find another of my stories about post-it notes posted! http://thesecret.tv/secret-treasures-stories-read.html?id=1401

:D

Day 17

2007-06-08T18:20:00.001-07:00

I'm not too sure how today has gone. I'll say it was neutral. My story was finally published http://web.bcnewsgroup.com/portals/monday/ (click on opinion then Living on the Edge) And I received a letter from the ex with his income tax form. My reaction should have been one of joy as he made $75,000 more than last year, which means child support goes up, but I felt anger. I was angry becasue they are always cryin poverty. They miss payments and beg me to charge less becasue they can't pay. All I can think is how lucky they are to have such a plentiful income. I can't wrap my head around ... wait a minute. I don't think they're poor at all. I have a feeling they're palying on my symapathies to get off.

OK, I have to keep positive. Child support will go up by about $600 in 2 months. That's fantastic. :)

I'm waiting on paypal to come through with funds for advertising, memberships etc. that I know will really get my internet income off the ground.

I got a call today for a interview, and found another survey site, so there's my daily 'new money making opportunity'. :)

The fair is in town, so after Jacob's soccer tomorrow we'll go, hopefully with a few other soccer kids.

3 weeks and 2 days until I am the perfect age!!!

Tonight's Super 7 Jackpot is 12.5 million! And tomorrow's 6/49 is $37 million! I've got the winning tickets for both!

Ahhh feeling much better. Thank you!

Day 14

2007-06-05T17:28:00.000-07:00

YAY! 2 weeks in!

Today's money making opportunity was a special invite to do some mystery shopping. I'm very impressed with that.

I went in to get our passports today. I need one missing child support agreement and they can be processed. YAY!!!!!

I got child support on time and in full today. That's another of my lines, that I receive it in full and on time every month. It has been, since saying it, so it must be working.

With some of the money I am putting it into my paypal account. I've signed up with Adsense and want to get that going. I keep hearing over and over how there's a fortune to be made with Google, so I want to hop on that train. I will also be getting a few intro subscriptions to various services like search engine submissions and, mystery shopping, and survey warehouse lists. I'm really going to dive head first into this. This is what I want, to work from home.

I got a call this morning from Monday Magazine. I had submitted a letter/story about the travesty I went through last fall around homelessness and the total absence of any resources. They want to print the story! In fact they have and I can pick it up tomorrow! YES!

I took a sleeping pill last night and drank a cup of tension tamer tea before bed. I think I only woke up 3 times. I was very happy indeed.

I also took off my little bandaid and slept with my finger uncovered for the first time in 2 1/2 months since I cut it. I haven't put the bandage on yet and don't plan to. It looks great!

Day 13

2007-06-04T10:37:00.001-07:00

I've decided to make an entirely seperate page for the info on home income. Please see it here: http://homecentsnow.blogspot.com/

I'm really excited about it and really recommend that everyone check it out. It comes so easily! Everyone should give it a try.

I've been having really choppy sleeps the last 2 nights. I'm unsure what it's about, but I intend to have a solid night's sleep tonight. I dreamt that I had to cross a winding multi lane highway in the dark. I got across several lanes, just missing cars. I came to a point where the cars were coming too fast and I didn't think I could cross without being hit. Suddenly my grandmother, a young woman and a young boy were on the side of the highway with me. It was the boy's 4th birthday and I was helping him open the gifts. I was happy to do it, but it wasn't fulfilling and I felt that I wasn't getting ahead. I looked up to check the highways and saw that it was clear for me to go. I said to my grandmother, this is it, I'm going to go. I think it she was skeptical, but I saw the opportunity and went for it. I ran across the road to the median and again across to the other side, missing the cars that went by. I knew I was in no danger. When I got to the other side, there was a short concrete wall. I jumped over it and it was a major drop to a highway below. I easily grabbed on to the wall and said to my grandmother, I'll meet you over there, then? and shimmied down the highway hanging from my hands. I was quite content and confident.

When I woke up, I thought it over and really saw this dream as a metaphor for my life. What I said the other day about feeling like I was at the edge of a cliff, having to decide whether to fall in trust or cower back.

My fingertip is officially uncovered and looks fantastic.

I'm nearly done Wallace Wattles's Science of Getting Rich. It is a very simple, but powerful book. Had I read it without the preface of the Secret, I wouldn't have fully understood it. I'm very grateful that he wrote this book and look forward to reading more of his stuff.

OK I'd best get on with watching my youtube videos for the day, then it's off to the park with my son and his friend so I can visualize and finish reading the book.

Have a beautiful day!

Mind Movies

2007-06-03T10:44:00.000-07:00

I almost forgot to mention this truly fantastic website that I've come across. Mind Movies started as a way to build yourself your own visualization mini movie to help focus your intentions. They got such a great response that they've turned it into a contest...the best mind movie wins $5000US.

I personally want to invite everyone to check this site out! They're really doing a great thing.

Click on the black banner at the top left side of the page.

Day 11

2007-06-02T10:46:00.000-07:00

Good day yesterday. Great day, in fact! I was in such a good mood all day. I got to see my mom Thursday night and went swimming with Jacob so I had reason to be happy!

Yesterday I picked up The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace Wattles from the library. I am honoured to be the first to read it! They boutght it on the 27th. I started reading it, but my lights started flickering and things were making their own noises, so decided to watch TV instead.

Today is a great day again. Super sunny and hot out. I'm taking Jacob to drop in soccer with his friends for 2 hours (where I'll get to read Getting Rich!) then taking home 2 of his best friends for a pizza and cupcake party. I've also invited the teenager from upstairs and her worker.

I'm doing fantastic with online money making. Signed up with google adsense and have that going here. I'll be interested to see what kind of earnings that'll bring in. And the survey, click-thrus and other offers just don't stop coming in.

One of the statements I make everyday is that I receive new money-making ideas and opportunities everyday. I've taken note that most of this week that has been absolutely the case. Whether it's a call for an interview, a new business opportunity, a new survey company to sign with or like today, an invite to join the next door neighbours garage sale! It's been there consistently. :)

I also got all the funds and more needed for rent. I asked and I reiceived. :)

My fingertip looks fabulous! You won't even be able to tell that it was amputated. I can tell I'm nearly done healing too. I'd give it less than 2 weeks before I have 100% skin. YAY!!!!!!

I got the nicest news. My mom was out Thursday night (which accounts for 90% of my good mood!) and she tells me that for my birthday (July long weekend) when Jacob and I come out for a visit, she's invited my grandma, grandparents, brothers, aunt, uncle and cousins! Every time I think of it I cry. I say it every day just how lucky and grateful I am to have a close family. I'll be 30, so it's a big year. It's in stark contrast to last year when I literally was totally alone. I'm so grateful. So thankful.

Day 8

2007-05-30T12:12:00.000-07:00

Where did the time go? :) Good news! I have an interview Friday morning for a FT benefits job that I know I can do. I'm already making $$ on the surveys, and have almost doubled the number of companies I'm signed on with. I will post a list of sites that offer sign on bonuses (for you, for me, or both!) so that you can get on the easy train too. The money isn't a full time income, but truly can supplement what you have.

I have been thanking upon waking everyday, affirmations in the shower, either going to the park and meditating or sitting at home with holosync every day. I watch a bunch of youtube movies daily as well. Not all in a day, but a variety. In fact, here are the ones I watch:

This is how I discovered the Secret:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DXFGsB9CZ0

Bob Proctor:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MulLAfffQoQ

The Secret Riches Visualization Tool:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2MqciSMOmk

Life Is Good Visualization Tool:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8seTj0i4mY

First 20 minutes of the Secret movie:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_b1GKGWJbE8

There was a great collage of clips from the Oprah show with the Secret folk that was removed! :( But I'm glad I got to watch it as often as I did.

I received the book No Such thing as Over-Exposure about Donald Trump yesterday. I'd ordered it from Ebay. Gonna have to dig into that. I now have my 6 books that I want to read in my 100 days here.

The rent dilemma is disappearing. Right now I am $77.50 short. BUT I have 25 movies to sell ($50-75 for those) bottles to recycle, and the rental subsidy comes in tomorrow. I will indeed have it covered. :))))

Oh! Here is my story at www.thesecret.tv : http://thesecret.tv/secret-treasures-stories-read.html?id=1400

Have a great day!

Day 5

2007-05-28T00:08:00.000-07:00

Ok day today. Went out to the park with my kid, did the dishes, said all the affirmations. The best part is that I've been survey crazy and am lnked to dozens of sites for paid surveys. I read up a bit on it and the key is to get in with as many as possible. I also looked up home business or work and found a few interesting leads.

Hmmm... out of words already.

Day 4

2007-05-26T22:04:00.000-07:00

Today was definitely better. I thanked a whole hell of a lot before getting out of bed. I ran through all the affirmations in the shower. I listened to holosync.

I got all the dishes done, cleaned out the animal's cage and litter, and put away a load of boxes and such from the living room. It does need more cleaned up in here. That'll have to be for tomorrow.

One thing I haven't been doing is reading. The best thing I got from Jack Canfield's video Making Your Dreams Come True is that you have to read. Not just read, devour books about success, wealth, amazing people. Read everything you can. I have 2 books from the library on loan right now. Harv Eker's Secrets of the Millionaire Mind and Donald Trump's How to be a Millionaire. I have another Donald book coming from Ebay. I bought a few others from the discount bin for $5.97 recently, so I have a stash to start reading away with.

Harv Eker's book is good. He really stresses how important it is to stay absolutely focused on your goal of success. How it has to be top priority, period. I heard Marla Maples say recently of her divorce from Donald that he was always saying 'Just one more deal, then I'll spend time with the family.' but as she said, it was never 'just one more'. He had that focus and couldn't take his eye off.

I've noticed a few little online drops in the money bucket available for me. 3 different and totally seperate areas for surveys and such and being paid for it. That's at-home income.

I've been feeling the last few days that really going after this wholeheartedly is like standing on the edge of a cliff. You're going to free dive. You've been told how to do it. You know it's possible. You've seen people do it. On the other hand, most people never take the dive. It's crazy! People tell you it's safer not to. And I'm standing there thinking "This is it. It's now. Do I jump?" Having this kind of faith is frightening, but as another of Harv Eker's points, most of his money was made through fear. This deal, that deal, risk risk risk, but it was the one thing that set him apart from mediocrity or failure and astronomical success. Donald says that too actually.

I'm so close to tipping over and letting myself fly on faith.
When I think of it, I think how frightening and how freeing and exciting it is all at once.

Last week i had a great hour long talk with Jared, a representative with Jack Canfield's Success Coaching. I had inquired about life coaching as I feel I really really need someone to mentor me. Well, he interviewed me saying there are only seven coaches, hand picked by Jack so not everyone can be mentored. I asked to be accepted and visualized it happening, and in fact I was!!! I was very excited. I plan to get that going in the future.

My most recently seen manifestation was the movies I watched last night. Without Jacob around I had to occupy myself (foreign to me!) I missively wished I could watch a certain genre of movie as I hadn't many like that in some time. Wouldn't you know it, 2 came on last night! Never had I seen them on TV before. :)

Day 3

2007-05-25T23:27:00.000-07:00

I did much better today that yesterday. I got a shower which means I said all my affirmations. I got the laundry done. I went to the food bank. Hmmm. That doesn't sound like much. But yesterday I literally was in bed all day.

I was very excited for Jacob that he was invited to a 24 hour sleepover pirate party with all of his close friends. He's never done this before. I'm sure he's having fun, all I can do is think of him.

And one of my stories was posted at thesectret.tv! I was so excited to see it.

I've really been lagging the last several weeks in applying the secret. I've been seeing how it's affecting me negatively lately, so I MUST get back on track. Another reason getting in on this. :) I've been really worried about rent. I've worked 3 hours this month and at this time am short on rent. I just have to have faith that somehow it will work itself out.

I've not been showering consistently, so I haven't been going through my affirmations daily (that's when I do them!). I've missed thanking as I get out of bed alot lately as well. I haven't been meditating with holosync everyday, nor excersizing everyday. I also haven't been on youtube watching all those secret clips over and over everyday either. My book was loaned to my landlord, and I'd really like to have it to refer to now.

If I can do all these things tomorrow I know I will feel better.

2007-05-23T19:50:00.000-07:00

Day 1

2007-05-23T10:56:00.000-07:00

So today is the first day of the 100 day challenge.

I read the Secret about a month ago and have been watching vidoe clips online, which is where I kept running into Lillou and the 100 day challenge. I work best under pressure, or atleast with expectation, so I was happy to discover this idea.

I'll start with an introduction. I am Erin, a single mother of one from Victoria BC. My son is 9, I am 29. I work very occassionally as a prep cook for a very cool cafe in the heart of downtown.

I'll also say that 2006 was hands down the worst year of my life. I was laid off just before Christmas of 2005 and as an uneducated single parent, felt my work options were very limited. I found part time work for minimum wage as a cashier and was able to find a roommate who had a child also to pay half the rent. A few months into work I developed first carpal tunnel then tendonitis, my roommate and her daughter revealed themselves to be filthy filthy people, and the $$ loss in wages was catching up with me. I was constantly counting down the weeks until homelessness and starvation because I beleived them to be inevitable.

By September 2006 I had kicked my nasty roommates out and was forced to quit my cashiering job. It was at this time that I fell into the most gripping paralyzing depression I have ever felt.

But to make a long story short, we barely missed homelessness and lived in a hotel for November and December, we barely ate, and my son missed lots of school (no money for transporatation and gripping depression had me home-bound).

When we moved into the hotel I did get a cash flow injection. My long-overdue EI claim came through and my ex started making regular child support payments. At this time I caught the Ellen show with Bob Proctor and John Assaraf. A light bulb went off. Here I had been putting all of my attention on homelessness all year. If I could put as much attention into a positive, constructive thought, maybe I'd get just as big a result.

So I did, and come January I was in a nice basement suite with a fantastic landlord.

However, job-wise things were the same. My EI claim ran out. My ex faultered on payments. I got a FT job in sales and was fired 4 days later (for literally no reason!)

Unfortunetly things are about the same. I got a great job as a prep cook 30hrs a week, all during school hours, so no daycare cost. But I injured myself 4 days in and had a week off. Then they put me on call only. Now I work maybe 5 hours a MONTH.

However after reading the secret last month, I now know I can change that. I have the home, now I need the income. So, here are my goals for the next 100 days:

1. Obtain enjoyable work that pays in excess of $3000/month
2. Lose 25 pounds and become physically fit
3. Read 6 books on success/wealth/attraction
4. Nail down the ability to trust the universe
5. Find and start a way of earning at-home income
6. Fully heal my amputated fingertip (above-mentioned work injury)
7. Obtain passports for my son and I

On I go...